The Course in Miracles defines a Miracle as a ‘shift in perception’. I recently experienced a miracle in my life as I was doing some healing work on myself. My intention for the past year and continuing through 2014 is to manifest a state of ideal health. I had a serious wake-up call last year with the tumor I developed in my spinal cord. I could have ended up paraplegic.
I knew surgery was the best option but I also had to deal with the thought of, “what if the doctor slipped during surgery and I acim up paralyzed anyhow?” It was pretty intense. Fortunately, surgery went off without a hitch. (I have always attracted excellent surgeons.) It’s a long road to recovery, but there have been many miracles along the way.
The Course in Miracles also says, “All thought creates form on some level.” I realized that I created the tumor because for years I bought into feeling unloved by my mother due to neglect I experienced in childhood. I thought I had forgiven my mother, but apparently I hadn’t. Sometimes we think we forgive, when in reality all we do is stuff our feelings and our bodies cannot help but manifest that energy somewhere, and often it manifests some form of illness.
I experienced debilitating symptoms with respect to the tumor when driving to see my family for Thanksgiving 2012. (Although I didn’t know at that time what was wrong with me.) For seven days after returning home, I proceeded to implement the Forgiveness Diet with a specific focus on forgiving my mom, and it worked! By Christmas that same year, just a few short weeks later, my mom gave me everything I had been hoping for as a kid. Most of which was her time.
My sister and I had planned a surprise 70th birthday party for our mom, whose birthday was the week after Christmas. Mom spent two days with us at my aunt’s house, and she didn’t worry about what her man thought. In fact he encouraged her to spend time with us. She also took the entire week off from work, which was huge! My biggest complaints about my childhood were that my mom seemed to put work and time with her husband (my step dad who’s now deceased) before my sister and I, which made me feel as though I wasn’t important to my mom, and that seriously affected my self-esteem and feelings of self-worth.
You see, my mom had recently reunited with her high school sweetheart after 50 years. Their break up in the sixties was the wound my mom needed to heal from all this time. They were in college (mom a freshman and Rog a senior), and my grandparents approached Roger and asked him to stop seeing my mom because they were afraid she wouldn’t finish college, because Mom and Rog had been talking about getting married.
In those days, it was important to respect your elders, and Roger submitted to their request even though he was heartbroken. The hard part was he didn’t tell my mom – he just disappeared out of her life. My mom was devastated because she had no idea her parents had this conversation with him. The irony is she dropped out of college anyhow.
As a result of being wounded at that age, she essentially stunted her emotional growth and parented us as a nineteen year old girl would. Going out to the bar with my stepdad was her priority as it would have been with any nineteen year-old, even though my mom was in her thirties at the time she neglected us.
Now that my mom and Roger reunited, my mom was able to heal from her wounds, find out what my grandparents did, and realize that Rog had always loved her and tried his whole life to reconnect with her. They are living together now, she feels safe and secure, he provides for her (which my stepdad never did) and they live a cozy, comfortable life filled with incredible love and gratitude. They work in the garden together in the summer, cook together all the time, and feed the birds together and watch them frolic through the kitchen window.
My mom healed her wounds. I did the work I needed to do to forgive her for how I felt she ‘wronged’ me, and that Christmas 2012 I received the best gift from her I ever could have – which was her time. She finally put my sister and me before work and before her man. I felt so loved and cared for that week, that I was then able to manifest a clear path to the answers around the tumor that I had been suffering with for a year and half and had no idea what was wrong with me.
Within 10 weeks of that Christmas, because I now felt loved, I was analyzed, diagnosed, and surgery was complete. You see the upper portion of your back where the tumor sat, represented ‘feeling unloved’ in Louise Hay’s book You Can Heal Your Life. I manifested the tumor by choosing to feel unloved, and I manifested its removal by choosing to feel loved. I was able to receive my mom’s love because I finally healed myself of my feelings of victimhood, resentment and anger by working on myself to heal those feelings through The Forgiveness Diet.
Mom and I didn’t have a knock down drag out fight. We didn’t discuss our feelings for hours, days, or years on end. I didn’t confront her and insist she apologize. All I did was heal my feelings toward her, and in that shift of perception a miracle occurred. I stopped judging her for what she didn’t give me and I was finally able to empathize with was she went through. She was only passing on what she knew.
Her parents both worked two and three jobs to support the family. She mistakenly learned that work was most important. Her wounds caused her to seek approval and validation in her mate, and she had no idea that she was parenting in an irresponsible way. I have completely forgiven my mom and my life is fuller for doing so.
I don’t carry resentment and anger with me anymore, which significantly impacts my ability to heal my body. I am able to be more loving and understanding with my mate, family, friends, and employees. There is a better cycle being perpetuated now that I chose to heal my feelings. I chose to shift my perception. I chose to create my own miracle.
And you can do the same. Get ready to experience a lighter, brighter view of the world. Uncover how to receive all the love you need. Reveal how to stop feeling like a victim, because you’ll have nothing to gripe about anymore, since your feelings of lack, judgment, anger, and resentment will be extinguished. You’ll be free of the chains that bind you. You’ll choose love. You’ll experience a shift in perception. You will have Created Your Own Miracle.
As Chief Manifester and Author of Manifest Your Man® Stacy Corrigan empowers women worldwide to eliminate the blocks that keep them from attracting love into their lives.